Would you like to add any of these related keywords before submitting? If any of them are relevent, you can click/tap them. Otherwise, just click Submit.
Please only add relevant keywords. Submissions with spammy or excessive keywords may be deleted.
Thanks so much for your submission! It will appear on the site after moderation.
{VENT!!!}
Sometimes I just wake up and I know it's gonna' be a bad day, and I know I can't do anything about it.
Even if everything goes right, sometimes, at the end of the day, I just can't be happy. I've tried
to find the good in everything and just "be happy!" but it's not that simple. My psychiatrist said it's
probably because of my anxiety and depression, and she wants to put me on meds, but my parents
are against all medications until I'm legally an adult. It doesn't matter how bad I need it, or what for. They just
seem to think that there are natural cures for everything. I'm pretty sure this is hereditary depression, as my sister
also has depression, and it could've been passed down from our parents or something idfk. It just keeps getting
worse. Because I wish I could be okay with my body, I wish I could go at least one day without being overly-paranoid
about one thing or another. I have therapy, and it is helping a little, but there's only so much
it can do. I'm just scared that my partner will leave me, or that they never even cared about me
in the first place. The hallucinations are getting more frequent and it's getting harder to decipher
what's real and what's fake. Panic attacks are pretty frequent, too. I've also been having more
psychotic breaks. Anyways sorry that was longer than I meant to make it, bye stay safe x3
---ASH0NP4WZZ
stupid ass creep doxxed by yours truly... mapleshade🍁
Reason for Dox: Johnathan has very interesting hobbies. One pertaining to moving large amounts of hard drugs across international borders, all whilst fulfilling his fantasies of speaking to
underage children online. Fucking creep and wouldn't be surprised if he's raided soon lol.
====================
*Personal Information:
Full Name: Johnathan Crowley
Phone Number: +31 6 25443317 (International Israelite who bounces back from Amsterdam to Spain)
DOB: 10/30/2002
Picture: Here's the front and back of his current ID.
https://ibb.co/2vxJYFm
https://ibb.co/HqJ27TF
Alias: amsterdam.luv
====================
*Location Information
Address: VIA AUGUSTA 261 A01 B, BARCELONA
Picture: Here's his stash-house! Enjoy the cocaine!
https://ibb.co/PYCNbb6
====================
*Social Media Accounts:
Twitter: N/A
Facebook: N/A
Steam: N/A
Instagram: @amsterdam.luv
by yours truly... mapleshade🍁X3
I've been thinking about suicide again. Everything just keeps getting worse.
Especially the hallucinations... I really think I need medications, as it affects my day to day
life and it's stressing me out so much. But my parents still don't want to give me any meds...
Not even for things like ADHD or anxiety. I keep getting flashbacks, too. And don't even get me
started on the panic attacks. Honestly, no matter what I do I genuinely don't think I can ever
live a good life because I'm not a boy. If I just kill myself there's the chance of being reincarnated
as a boy, or at least some other creature that's better than a human girl. I'm just honestly done
with everything. I don't care who'll miss me, because I really, really hate myself so much I
can't even put it into words. I don't want to be trans, I want to be a real boy. This
fucking sucks. No amount of self harm will be enough to fix this, I think at the end of the
day, committing is the only way out of this fucking hellhole.
---ASH0NP4WZZ🧷