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Needle Phobia; autism and coping with blood tests and vaccinations
Isabella’s story
We asked Isabella if she’d like to write something
after we were initially contacted by her mum,
experiencing a huge lack of support for needle
phobia. Isabella had become more and more unwell,
but all medical professionals said they couldn’t do
anything further without blood tests. The problem was
nobody was supporting Isabella to be able to have
the testing.
From Isabella’s mum
“She came home from university at Easter and after
days of high temperatures she was told to go to A&E.
It was here that an incredibly understanding Doctor
listened to what we were saying, took into account
her autism and helped to arrange for her to
self-administer a finger prick test that allowed them
to collect just enough blood for an initial test.
To cut a long, night in A&E, story short, she was
diagnosed with leukaemia and immediately admitted
to hospital and is now undergoing intensive chemotherapy.
The autism note on her file and the extremely
understanding staff here have helped her navigate
numerous bone marrow biopsies and lumbar punctures and
allowed her to have tablet forms of other medications
that could have been injections.
We are just so grateful that we finally found medical
professionals who understood, they are few and far
between.”
From Isabella
I’d like to talk about some of the challenges I’ve
faced because there’s been a lot of variation and I
think it’s very important for medical staff to know
what does and doesn’t work. I can now see that being
taken seriously can save lives; and it scares me to
know that not being listened to can put lives at risk.
I think the main things I’ve experienced have been:
Secondary school vaccination staff are not properly
aware of additional challenges that some students
may have. Looking back on my experience in secondary
school, I don’t think the community nurses were
properly aware that they couldn’t take a one size
fits all approach. Their approach to me being too
scared to have the vaccines done at school was to
simply send me to the catch up clinic for it which
unsurprisingly didn’t do anything because it was the
exact same set up as school! Sure, they didn’t know
that I was autistic (and I had no clue either) so
making adjustments wouldn’t have been their first
priority; though I suspect it was very obvious by
the amount of distress I was very visibly showing
that something wasn’t typical about what was happening.
We eventually managed to go to a second catch up clinic
where they did vaccinate me successfully but it wasn’t
overall a successful experience I’d say and it probably
did more harm than good. I made sure that I mentioned
this time that I wanted them to be clear with me what
was happening and they told me that they would let me
put on headphones and try and relax myself before they
attempted to vaccinate me. But no, they did the vaccine
while I was preparing for it and made me lose all my
trust in them because they had not listened properly.
So when I came back for the second dose of the HPV
vaccine the year after it never happened because I
couldn’t trust them to make me feel calm enough to
start the process of taking my blazer off because I
couldn’t trust them to vaccinate me when I felt ready
and not to shock me and do it too early and unexpectedly.
The main thing they could’ve done that would’ve helped?
I’m not sure as it was a long time ago, but I think
acknowledging the existence of undiagnosed neurodivergent
students (or students who are more anxious about it for
other reasons too) going through vaccination who might
have heightened anxiety could be a good start and being
fully honest and open with them about what’s going to
happen and giving them the time and space they need. I
think maybe if someone had in the catch up clinic
realised that I was too scared and used 20 minutes to
talk through arranging another time to get it done in
a more relaxed environment with numbing cream for example
and reassuring me that it would be ok, I might’ve been
more willing to try instead of giving up in fear.
Less of a relevant point now but I think still important
to mention: they could’ve reconsidered which order of
vaccines to offer me. At the time, you needed 2 doses
of the HPV vaccine to be fully vaccinated (or 3 if over 15)
[I believe the NHS guidance is now only one dose, but may
be wrong] and I can’t help but wonder if they could’ve
considered that if they did scare me off vaccines completely
that it might be worth giving me a vaccine where at least
I’d get full protection instead of told that because I
hadn’t had the second dose within 2 years that the only one
they could give me was effectively useless at the time? I
couldn’t help but wonder at the time if I should’ve asked
them for the meningitis vaccine instead (even if I’d be
given it a few months early) because at least then I’d
have protection against something I knew I needed for
university but was worried I’d never be brave enough to have.
Because if you can’t vaccinate someone fully, surely it’s
better to prioritise something that will provide full rather
than partial protection? I remember thinking that would’ve
been a very important conversation to have at the time but
not having the confidence to raise it. I did end up leaving
for university without the meningitis vaccine which I know
is not good but due to the lack of support from the secondary
school immunisation team, it would never have been possible.
If you speak to someone willing to be understanding, it can be
lifesaving. When I went to A+E and my mum explained to the
doctor that my autism meant that I was completely irrationally
scared of blood tests and that I hadn’t been able to have one
for months I asked if I could self administer a finger prick
blood test because it was the only way that I could see myself
being able to do it. The doctor was incredible because she
could see that even though it wasn’t “the way” of testing it,
it would be the only possible way so contacted the paediatrics
section of A+E to see if it would be possible and (partially
because I’m 19 so close to having been a child anyway) we were
told we could do it.
The nurse who gave me the test and everything, was incredible!
She took her time to be very clear how to administer the test
and helped calm all of my nerves and feel calm and confident
to do the test and allowed me to do what once felt impossible.
The kindness and understanding that she had towards my fears
made a once impossible challenge possible.
And shortly after that we got the results quite quickly that
further needle stabs would be needed because my blood results
were very concerning. But this news was delivered to us by
the very kind and understanding paediatric nurse who came
armed with numbing cream and understanding that I was not going
to be happy with the news, which I obviously wasn’t. But she
gave me 5 minutes to process it which really really helped
because otherwise I would’ve been too overwhelmed and probably
refused. Having the same nurse who was willing to take things
slower put on numbing cream and insert cannulas / do further
blood tests at a pace that suited me being clear with what was
happening and when and communicating clearly and checking that
I felt comfortable throughout the whole process made it
possible to do.
I’ve had a very similar experience with all my procedures since
being transferred from A+E to the teenage cancer trust ward I’m
in. The nurses here are amazing and because they know that my
autism makes me scared of needles they make sure that I am
always given numbing cream before I need a stab and that I’m
given plenty of hours’ notice which really calms my nerves and
they are always clear about what happens when which has been
great!
And I think this is the main message I would love to try and
amplify to people; pausing to understand that someone is
absolutely terrified and making relatively adjustments
(finger prick test over traditional blood test, numbing
cream, taking things slower and clearly) can make the impossible
possible. I would never have had a blood test without the support
of paediatrics and genuinely if I hadn’t had that I would have
just refused to do a blood test and walked out of A+E having done
nothing and knowing what we know now, I could have possibly died
by now without it, and that terrifies me. If A+E had not made
those accommodations, I would never have known how ill I am and
started treatment which is saving my life.
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Isabella, 19.
Maths student and lover of all things maths.