life has been so shitty in the past 2 months,
my parents divorced they argue alot and mom got a new boyfriend? i fucking hate his ass too
dont get me started on this cause this easter he stood over at our place like it was his?
he even made our dogs not fear him so he could enter our house by the front door.
its not like he's bad or something i just fucking hate my mom for searching a new man
instantly after divorcing my father and acussing him of going to Germany
to look for another woman to marry.
all this was bullshit honestly and their worthless ass 40 minutes of delusional claims conversation
happened because my mom got mad he earns more money than her.
I can't hate my mom but she makes me hate her.
im hating myself too
its like some karma shit
also i hate myself for only playing games on the pc instead of actually doing something,
im year 8 and i needa study for the exam but instead
im playing pc all day besides like weekend where i go outside w my friends
honestly i hate myself for being a selfish dude aswell,
im hurting people around me just for me to feel good.
i dunno whats up with me, i seriously need sum help.
my life has been so shit ever since 2022 its like im going in a loop of nothing but sadness and events where my siblings die
or they get some disease.
also i think my dad will remarry in Germany with a woman named "Belle"
and that woman has a daughter named Hannah which practically will be my stepsis??
im 14 and shes 15 so please dont ship us cause im from romania n shes from germany.
but anyways, as ive said multiple times already, my life wont fucking get better
and there might be a reason that is worth living for but i just dont see it.
this "spark" for life dissapeared in 2022 and never appeared again ever since.
- vinerea13 on discord