hi im a random trans guy named micah living in the south usa. i made it to 20 years old despite going through some awful shit and having awful boomer fuckheads as guardians (because the person who birthed me, but i made it out! that part just involved waiting- which can be worse than hell. but i did it.
ive got lots of shit wrong with my head (bpd, ocd, possible npd or hpd, mdd, gad, plural, audhd, nocturnal seizures.... and so on) and im sure a lot of you guys do as well. brains are weird! its like 99% of the time its working against you and just trying to make you as miserable as you can possibly be, and that usually,,, unfortunately doesnt go away. at least, not completely. that's what depression and mental illness does to you, yknow?
but that doesn't mean you have to give up, especially those of you who are so so young still. i know you feel stuck there, your home and parents are all you have known, and i really do know how much people like that break you down and make you feel like youre less than dirt and there's absolutely NOTHING beyond this. but i *promise*, life goes on, and i also know how annoying it can be to hear that when youre suffering so much. it's as if someone's telling you to just get over it and wait it out. and while i'm not telling you to "get over it", i swear that when you are able to leave your 'home' and make your own decisions, live where you want, dress exactly how you want, (for those of you who are trans) finally get your hormones and feel the utter euphoria when you see the first changes, cut the shitty and abusive people from your life... etc. etc... you'll look at yourself in the mirror one day and think "yeah. yeah, it's getting better."
you are so much more than the abuse you're going through. and you know whats absolutely chad? outliving the stupid fucks that tear you down and showing them that you are your OWN PERSON and that you know YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS. but you have to be alive in order to spit in their faces.
i know it's probably nothing, but please please please know that i do truly care for you on here that are suffering. YOU MATTER TO ME, no matter what your thoughts are telling you. you aren't "cringe" for suffering through abuse and mental illness, you aren't worthless, and you are capable of so much more than you could ever imagine. i promise.
please, be as safe as you can be and remember that people see your posts, and they care. i'm giving you all a big hug through the screen even if you can't feel it. good luck out there, and if nobody has said it yet, i love you all<3