Lore drop/vent? Idk but it exists
Dear man,
You are not my father. The man I called my father used to be understanding, fun, optimistic even. Now, I wonder, are you the same way? Or am I correct in the way of thinking you have changed? Last time I saw you, you were upset. Well, were you upset? Iâm not good at interpreting emotions, mine having been bottled up for so long. Back to you. I wonder, are you getting mad? Whereâs your empathy? Your wife told me I donât have empathy. But then how do you explain my feelings of pity for you? Are you wrinkling the paper? Have you thrown this away? Even better, is your wife reading this? Have you tried going to coupleâs therapy? You should, because thatâs what you need. Obviously me telling you youâre brainwashed isnât enough. Men tend to avoid therapy because it tends to seem weak. But, youâre weak if you wonât notice the little things sheâs done. Remember when she called me a narcissist? When she slapped me in the face and said it was my neck? Truly, that was stupid of her. More harm can come to me if you hit me in the neck then in the head. What kind of father are you to let that happen?
âKids are still depressed when you dress them up..â
{melanie martinez, sippy cup}
Hereâs empathy again. Is George doing okay? I hope he never has to go through what I went through. Rather, I assume since heâs your biological son, you take care of him more. Baby him, even. Spoil him, possibly? And do you shush him, on no, Iâm not to be talked about? Am I the villain of your story? The destructor of all worlds? Am I your daughter? Seriously, do you even care? If you do, it's almost too late. Iâm starting to lose hope in you.
âCanât imagine myself growing old, feel like the whole worldâs collapsing around meâ
{falling faster, Dylan Espeeth}
Do you miss the constant arguments? All of them were always about me. I caused them, right? Do you miss it? Oh, remember when your wife told you not to stand up for me because I would think you were siding with me? Fake news. I did not care. I do not care. I will not care. Narcissistic, the thing I am. You see what Iâm getting at? You siding with me did nothing. SHE is in control. She always wins. There was no way for me to get out of it. Every little thing that went wrong. Me, me, me, right? And then when I finally stood up for myself, I felt horrible. Because standing up to you, when you did nothing wrong, is wrong. I was upset when I had been sitting in my room alone with nothing but myself and books. A man only lives once but in books he may live many. But what if I found none of those lives exciting anymore? Same walls. Same books. Same emotions. Same dread of ever seeing you or your wife.
âSomebody save me.. Me from myself..â
{jelly roll, save me}
Remember when your wife said I was only suicidal for attention? Am I? I hate how little you listened to me. Because you haven't seen how I've hurt myself because I kept being told I was narcissistic, a bad influence, and that I was somehow dangerous. Am I dangerous to her because I found her out? Not only that, but I was never given a phone. George was. âYouâre not George, you donât behave.â Excuses. Those sound like excuses. He was 8. I was 13. When I needed to talk there was no one to talk to. Thatâs when I found out I was being abused. The school counselor at Southwestern told me that you canât harm me. Mentally was where I hurt the most. I still do, to this day. I wonât heal. The damage has been done, and I canât wait to see you in court when Iâm 18 :]
âNo one ever listens, this wallpaper glistens.â
{melanie martinez, dollhouse}
And thatâs where CPS came in. Remember how your wife mocked me? Thatâs messed up. I know you didnât know at the time, but I had been cutting myself. You guys didnât notice, despite your wifeâs threat to send me to a mental hospital if she found out I was hurting myself. She never did notice. Did she even hear me when I yelled at you guys at the celebration of life? I told you everything, and now I realized youâre a bit too far in. Youâre brainwashed. And, honestly, so was I. Sheâs not a good person. And you? Itâs kind of pathetic, to think I thought you would listen and care. But here I am, away from the friends I had been with for 4 years, and there you are spreading false information.
âTo think that I admired you, well I don't need your condescension, I'm not a child to protect.â
{you didnât know}
Dear Ugly ahh woman,
No words for you because, in short, you should cease to exist from your husbandâs life.
âAnd I was dancing in the rain, I felt alive and canât complainâ
{Runaway}
Dear {no name giving sowwy},
I miss you, itâs weird, yâknow? Being torn away from you just as I truly started knowing you. Have you ever had so much stuff to say to someone you donât know how to say it? Maybe one day I will learn how to tell you how I feel. One day I will learn how you feel too. I promise this will work out. Please donât give up on me. ALSO REPLY TO MY FRIGGIN TEXTS YOU WORM
âIf I say I miss you, I know that you wonât.â
{something in the orange, Zack Bryan}
Dear {nope},
STOP BEING STUPID YOU WORRRRMMMMM. I might never see you now, if only you didnât have to vape, you silly goose. The last words I ever said to you was that I loved you. And now, do you still do stupid stuff? I wish I knew you for longer and that you understood how I felt. Also, imagine liking men >:] Anyways, I hope youâre doing better, and please stay away from Jocelyn Haynes. Sheâs done nothing but harm you. And when you get a phone number, tell Maddi so I can get it please. Or else I will find you.
âHOME, a place where I belong..â
{home by mgk, Ambassadors, bebe rexha}