“Im so sorry for everything. For everything long ago, and starting those fights.. that Anacat thing, the Anaya and Maya fight.. and the fight with me and Ezra. Yeah, maybe me and Ezra dont get along, I think thats clear, but I shouldnt have dragged you into it, and if I could go back I wouldnt have. I want to be honest; I have never cared for a friend as much as I have cared about you. Maybe you were supposed to be my Best Friend, you could always make me laugh the hardest anyway.. I didnt have to put up any barrier to avoid being vulnerable near you because you never made me feel that way. Gosh, I love you so much, you bring out the best in me that no one else ever sees. I tell Ezra I miss you but i dont, I lied. Ok, remember our deep conversations? I dont have those conversations with Ezra because i dont know. I feel that Ezra will lash out on me and use something against me if i say something really important.. like I told Ezra how i used to manipulate people back when i was a stupid 12 year old, and now Ezra keeps using it against me.. I cant. I cant be vulnerable around Ezra. I still care a lot about Ezra but i dont think Ezra likes me very much. Ezra keeps on saying that I am manipulating them but I really would never do that.. Impy I really need your advice. I just cant. It isnt a good friendship. Ezra doesnt know the REAL bytes. the REAL me. I just pretend im okay after the arguments but really its exhausting.. I want to cry. Its so hard to deal with Ezra, and Ezra keeps on saying things like I hate them but little do they know I would kill someone for them. Ezra also says things about their appearance, which isnt true at all. Ezra is a very kind person underneath their.. outbursts.. Impy please help me. Please help me. Please.. im actually begging for you... My heart physically hurts from sadness. My dad is loosing his job..”