You have strayed from the sacred path illuminated by the holy light of God. Beware of those who disguise themselves as virtuous, yet carry the malice of wolves in sheep's clothing, leading you towards a detrimental future for yourself and those around you. I implore you, with heartfelt love and devotion, with your parents and the Holy Spirit, to reconsider your stance on worship. Even if you feel a sense of anger or resentment towards the idea, I urge you to try it, just once. By doing so, I firmly believe you will experience a profound sense of upliftment and a renewed sense of holiness that will resonate deeply within your soul. I too have struggled with balancing "friends" on the internet along with my belief in the lord in times past, although you are able to rest assured that you are on the right path of rediscovering your faith. So go ahead, may it be a small act of charity or offering to go to church, I implore you to chase your religion.
Remember, Kaden. G-d loves us all. <3